I've been reading a lot these days.. Really a lot.. Like at home, I seem to have started showing favouritism to my books instead of the computer.. And on the bus and trains, I'll just bury myself in a book and the journey would just fly by very quickly..

Realised I have been subconsciously using novels to occupy my otherwise wandering mind.. I mean honestly towards him, I'm still in a mess.. in terms of thoughts.. I mean one side of me would be thinking it's impossible so it's better to leave things as they are and just pray that time would wash stuff away like the waves wash away things on the shore.. and the other is still holding on to the last straw.. No wonder people say that it's not difficult to try to hold on.. it's harder to let go..

In the practical sense all such thinking will really go nowhere.. so occupying my mind with other intense stuff may be the way to push other stuff to the back of my mind..

hahaha actually I'm a little surprised with myself that I wrote what I wrote.. never imagined that I'd ever talk about such stuff again on my blog..

Anyway, so far I've read quite a few novels.. including the kite runner.. which is superb.. it's the first time I've ever cried reading a book.. with just the weaving of the story gripping at my heartstrings.. no background soundtrack to contribute to the mood.. just the beautiful words that build the story.. and there's also "waiting years" by enchi fumiko.. eng translation of a jap book.. it was heartwrenching really.. and it made me feel for women of olden days Japan.. it made me proud of ALL women.. the sufferings our gender has faced since the past.. and how courage has brought us here thus far.. and how it will bring us to new horizons we've never though possible..

I've become so desperate for books I've even turned to the books my brother bought for his school english and literature readings.. and I search the library like I'm searching for treasure.. trying to fish out a decent book or two from the large piles of rubbish..

well right now I'm just reading, packing, going out with friends, having long talks with my mum to pass my time..

and I pray the storm will soon be over..

and there'll once again be sunshine after the rain..